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At the warm season's beginning I'd hoped the fodder of vacations and activities would resurrect my desire to blog. Needless to say that has not happened.

It's been a difficult year and the warm season did not change those things much. There have been difficulties involving extended family that my husband , kids and I have been unavoidably dragged into. There have been serious health issues with my father and worsening physical issues for my oldest son that inevitably lead to larger complications in dealing with a broken system. There was the sudden loss of my nephew to a  unexpected, little understood illness that barely had us breathing before we were off on what turned out to be a strenuous  3+ week traveling adventure. Two days into that trip we received a call that a long time friend was missing, thought to be drown and a week of searching before he surfaced. Two weeks into the same vacation our youngest son, who is almost never sick, became ill enough that we had to cut the trip short and head for home. It was another two weeks before he was well. My husband and I are tired, exhausted beyond any exhaustion we thought possible and trying to take care of each other and our independent selves (not very successfully when it comes to ourselves).

It has been a warm season fraught with tears and worries, difficulties and challenges that cross the extent of human emotion and endurance. I do not say this for pity or sympathy I say this because it is what has been a life changing series of events over a short period of time. It is not all bad for there is an awareness, understanding,  appreciation and gratitude for each other and the life we've built together.  Right now we are working on healing, nurturing, centering ourselves and each other while juggling changing priorities. I expect that will continue for some time to come.

For much of my life I have been faithful at journaling my thoughts and experiences both as a desire and a requirement, though I've said good-bye to this blog several times, my devotion to that habit has brought me back. It is not something that's been required of me for a few years and at least for now I no longer feel the desire or need to do so publicly, or even privately. So until such a time as that changes, you'll find cobwebs filling the space where words and photo's once were. I'm climbing my stairway to heaven every day. I haven't time to write about the moments I'm busy experiencing them.

Peace & Love may it forever find you.